An old one I made

1 Corinthians 7

How many of you wonder and yearn for a boyfriend? How many have you chased after love before you were ready? 

In Song of Solomon 2:7 "Oh, let me warn you, sisters in Jerusalem, by the gazelles, yes, by all the wild deer: Don't excite love, don't stir it up, until the time is ripe—and you're ready. (MSG)"

God has a plan for you.

I have been falling in love with chapter 7 of 1 Corinthians. Paul talks about marriage. He defines marriage in a way. That the world has lost it.  He says

 "I do, though, tell the unmarried and widows that singleness might well be the best thing for them, as it has been for me. But if they can't manage their desires and emotions, they should by all means go ahead and get married. The difficulties of marriage are preferable by far to a sexually tortured life as a single. The Master did not give explicit direction regarding virgins, but as one much experienced in the mercy of the Master and loyal to him all the way, you can trust my counsel. Because of the current pressures on us from all sides, I think it would probably be best to stay just as you are. Are you married? Stay married. Are you unmarried? Don't get married. But there's certainly no sin in getting married, whether you're a virgin or not. All I am saying is that when you marry, you take on additional stress in an already stressful time, and I want to spare you if possible. (1 Corinthians 7:8, 25 MSG)"

Paul writes to the church in Corinth about marriage. He encourages many to stay unmarried as he is. In the CEB version, "But if they can’t control themselves, they should get married, because it’s better to marry than to burn with passion. (1 Corinthians 7:9 CEB)" In this culture in to today society marriage has become a joke. There is more unsuccessful marriages than successful ones.  Paul chases the rabbit hole  when he talks about staying in your place. He starts in verse 17 telling us to not wish to be somewhere else. God has a plan for you I the situation you are in.

Those who are single don't worry about having a boyfriend/girlfriend 

or wife/husband. In today society more people are focus on their relationship stance then following God. Should we fall God and let everything else fall in place? 

Calming of the Storm

Matthew 8:23-27

New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Calms the Storm

23 Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24 Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping.25 The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”

26 He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.

27 The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

In the month of July I partipate in my church's Drama Time for Vbs. This year we are doing Life of Christ. Today at practice we the calming of the storm a little ironic to the massive storm I now hear out side my window. I love being a part of this retelling of bible stories because I learn more about the story myself. I am not on stage much but I rather be that way because I have always been a watcher than a doer. 

A about an hour ago a huge storm hit the area where I live. While some were freaking out; I was enjoying listening to the storm because I do not fear it much anymore. I am not saying I do not have fear. This storm did not scare me. 

The director of show, a woman I respect and look up to,  constantly reminds us that Jesus is speaking to him us as well as the audience and displences he had. 

God calms all the storms from the weather to our lives.  My thoughts are slightly scattered because I am tires tonight. 

A Journey for a better "me"

I have tried to lose weight several times this is the first time that I have gotten this far. 

The lack of number on this little tracking thing is mostly because when I first got this app I weighed less than. 

Since I began this diet this time. I started this around June 14.I  have lost 14 lbs. I am proud of this new achievement. 

I am doing this for me. So I can better serve God and serve my purpose in this world. 

I do not know what is in the store for me but I hope to losing weight. I have a goal and I want to fulfill it this time.
This is a Journey for a better "me"

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20 But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body. 

Philippians 3:20-21

I am a poet. One thing I love is to write my words on paper. I written about crushes, my beliefs, things that inspire me.

I started writing when I was a freshman in high school. As I grown in my life and my walk with God the poems focus has changed. What once was a poem about guys and heart break become about God's will. I still write about guys but more on a striving for the right thing for the both of us.

I started a story called Someday about 3 to 4 years ago and this story is left un finished. My friends who have read it are encouraging me to finish it. I am going to try.

I enjoy adding a verse at the end of my blogs. So here is it.

If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. John 15:10 NIV

From, 
Evynn 

Mind is going everywhere at the moment so bare with me. I went to see a movie with my friends tonight and loved it. I loved going to see the movie with the girls. I was happy.

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As I was taking a friend home we talked about Ukraine. She was very positive that she was going to go again next year. I, however have learned in the last year nothing you think or say you are going to do.  Life can change in a matter of a second to a month, and year. I told my friend that I don't know if I am going back next year but God has a plan. He has a purpose for my life.

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Last night I was talking with one of the actors in the drama time show.  I told him that I loved being on the crew.  He told me he does not know how I could stay behind the scene because he wanted to be on the stage. Which I responded that I had stage fright.

As much as I like getting compliments. I hate the stares of everyone and being the center of attention to everyone.  I like the shadows, part of me would be content on the sidelines letting my friends live my life. But there a part of me that conflicts this. I want to be noticed yet when I am I get scared.  God has a plan and a purpose even if the spotlight scares me.

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I have stage fright from talking to the people who really matter to me. There are some people that I really care what they think. I tend to not to be able to talk to the guys I like. A question I always wonder. What am I scared of?  Why can I not talk to him?

I have always been better hiding behind facebook messenger, texting, writing notes since my middle school years. I can put myself out there before actually putting myself out there. Some people do not understand why I can message them but not say hi in person. I am getting better at talking in person. However I do not know if I will freeze next time I can see a guy I like.

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This probably sounds stupid to you. I am kind of rolling around in self pity yet I am working this out for myself and I am tired of holding it in any longer.  I have pushed people away. I still pray for them and I still want the best for them.

In the last time I liked a guy I prayed so hard that God will to be done and for him to be happy with the other girl if he liked her.  I still pray for his happiness and God's will to be done.
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 A woman I truly admire told me I was perfect because I always cared about people. She told me this after I said I still care about my ex boyfriend and friend.  That comment struck me.  I never been paid a comment like that.

God has a plan for me and everyone that I meet. For if they are meant to stay in my life or leave it.

But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.

Exodus 9:15-17 

Love,
Evynn

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I have been lost but Jesus found me.

This morning at church my preacher was talking about the three parables in Luke chapter 15. The Lost Coin, Lost Sheep, and Lost Son three parables that answer the one question the Pharisees ask. For a visual he talk about if my youth minster had left some one in St. Louis at Six Flags. 

From where I was sitting I was giggling because about four or five years ago in August I and a friend of mine was left at our hotel when they were heading home. During the lesson I was sitting next to one of my best friends and we were sitting in front of my youth ministers, his wife, and his oldest son. His oldest son jokes, "Where Evynn?" While all of us were laughing quietly. Our own private little joke ever since then when we went anywhere as youth for the next year. They joked "Where's Evynn?"

The visual struck with me since I have been lost like this. I was found once again when they picked me up but the first realization between both of us was taking turns freaking out. We sat in the lobby of the hotel while we called people in the group to let them know that we were still at the hotel. I remember that we sat and watched the tv in the lobby of the hotel. The show was Chuck Norris show Texas Ranger until we were picked up.  The whole story is funny now but it was a little scary at the time. 

In Luke chapter 15 has three different places where they rejoice in something lost and was found again first in 

• Luke 15:6-7 
• 6 and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ 7 I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.
• Luke 15: 9-10 
• 9 And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.’ 10 In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”
• Luke 15:22-24, 32
• 22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

I was lost in sin but Jesus found me. 

Evynn 

Independence Day

My plan for this weekend was to hit the road to Edmond and spend the weekend with some friends of mine. I had the hopes for the weekend and dreams.  Then the night before last I had a horrible anexity attack and could not sleep. Every few hours I would wake up crying. In the morning I crawled into my moms bed and crashed drained from emotion.

This weekend was going to be my first Fourth of July in two year that I am in the states and the first one with out spending it with my families. i was also going to drive on the highway by myself for the same time. My independence day.

Instead I spent half of the day sleeping. My mom threw a party for friends and families. I got to swim with some of my friends but I wasn't in the mood to be around people. I had a plan that I wanted to do. I had tons of fun but my mind was on the stuff I had planned.

After the party we went to shoot off and watch fireworks with some family in Broken Arrow. That was fun and I have some pictures from it. When I was little we used to go up to the farm and set off fire works with the family.

Celebrating the Fourth with family and the Independence I thought I was ready for.

Philippians 4:4 "Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say that rejoice."

Evynn