Sunday, April 3, 2016

May I not be silenced in speaking about my Lord.

May I not be silenced in speaking about my Lord.

There is a lot of things that are going through my mind tonight as I start to type this out. I have been feeling a need to write for a while but did not know exactly what to say. However today seemed to set me over the edge. Words pressed to my heart seemed to be needing to expressed and heard.

Let me lay down some context what is happening in my life right now. I am recently graduated from Oklahoma Christian with a Mission major. Currently, I am living at home in Broken Arrow. I am working at the Mothers day/ Preschool at my home church in BA. This time in Broken Arrow is temporary I am training to go into the mission field every week on Wednesday nights in Edmond. My mission field is going to Oklahoma City or the south-side of OKC at Capitol Hill Church of Christ. if you have been around me you may have heard me talk about it. Part of it is that I have to raise money and that makes me scared. This time is like transition for me and it makes my anxious heart a little more anxious.

Context aside there is things that happened over last week that confirm and show God goodness. Last Wednesday with the crazy weather in Tulsa. I could not just come back after my training session like normal and had to stay the night and drive back in the morning. With a pain and craziness becomes a blessing. When I could not drive back I got to stay for class at Memorial Road, “Plugged in” class, I got to eat Hideaway with some of my Capitol Hill people. It was nice time for fun and fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ. I also got to see and stay with one of my other friends and chat with her. That was a great refresher of people I have missed.

Today, Sunday I finally got to see Brandon and Katie Price for the first time in almost maybe 3 years because I missed them last time they were in the states. Brandon taught the Sunday morning sermon and it was very convicting. He also read one of my favorite passages (Philippians 4:4-7). During this time he was talking about peace.  In having this peace means not to worry or be anxious. There are parts of his sermon that brought tears to my eyes because of belief in other people in our God. It makes me question my own faith for him to provide for the support I need.

Tonight there was two different things that made me write this blog post tonight. The first thing is one of the guys from EEM. I have met this guy at OC Lectureships and preacher luncheons and discussed Ukraine. I have got many of Ukraine maps on their give the bible to everyone pledges to hang on my wall for my shrine to Ukraine. When he spoke it made my Ukrainian part of my heart happy but sad because I miss being there. I trust God and that he will bring me back when the time is right. There is something I seem to forget that God provides and opens people hearts. I have been having a back a forth battle having faith that God will provide the money for things that He has set to be done.

The last thing, something that I choose to do for myself. After church I went to see God’s Not Dead 2. Oh How I begged for you all to see it. It reaffirming hope that I know that God is good all the time and All the time is God. Some of the words I can not think of words to say but my brain is tired. There is just a lot of things that this week has confirmed my faith on. In the movie also had mulitiple times that will remind you that you need to have something that you can tell people about why you believe what you believe. 

The lower Satan pulls you down, Have faith that God will lift you for HIS GLORY twice as far.
Let our lives be testament and play part in His ultimate story.
Good Night brothers and sisters,
Love,
Evynn

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