The last month has been insane but new revelations about myself, my relationship with God, and others around me. It all started January 29th when on my way to church I got in accident. By events that are now a little more fuzzy now. I had rear ended the person in front of me while sitting in traffic on I-235. When I hit the person in front of me, that car preceded to hit the car in front of them. The location that I had the wreck was so close to my destination that the frustration was numbing.
Earlier that day, I had not been feeling well and the only comfort that i had was that I soon would be at Capitol Hill. That has become my home church since the summer. My home church that is filled with amazing amount of kids, people who love to love, always feel free to give you love when needed, and those who will laugh with you when you or they do something stupid.
While I was sitting in my car trying to stay calm and praying for the Lord to guide in what I should do. Air1 was playing in the background for a while after my car was turned off. I waited for a long time and watched the cars pass by counting the vans I recognized. Wanting nothing more than to just leave and go to church. Right before church started I got the all clear to leave. I got back on the road. My car was drivable thankfully.
I got to the church while they were ending the song and started the prayer. I walked to a Sister I texted while I was waiting in the car that I need a hug. When she hugged me, that is when the tears started. She pulled me into the clinic and let me explain when I calmed down. While I was trying to pull myself together to go teach my class. She offered and taught my class that night.While I spent the day in the clinic listening and talking. There was two teens, who I love dearly, they stopped and hugged me. I could not wait to get to church and it was what I need that day, the encouragement I needed.
"9 For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10 He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing." 1 Thessalonians 5:9-11
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Since that night to February 16, I had been slowly not driving my car very much. I got a ride once or twice to Capitol Hill. Most of the damage to my car was cosmetic damage aside from not able to (just in case) turning on the a/c or heat *Shiver*. I was trying to time it just right to get my car in. I also signed up to be part time in Spring Sing. :D On the night before I would have to drop off my car ice rained down from the sky while I watched the championship of the clubs basketball. It was a fun night. I had to leave my car put for the night because the ice was not budging. I got a ride back to the apartments.
The next morning while I was hoping we would have classes because I had a test that I would have liked to drive my car to in the morning. School got cancelled. I got my car and drove it very carefully off the parking lot that was only missing the ice skaters practicing for the Olympics from the sheet of ice across it. I drove around a little getting food and basking in the last few hours with my car and the freedom to drive. I feel the need to 'clarify' that I love my car. Eric Beels (named after the computer geek on NCIS: LA) is my baby and boyfriend. He has also been nicknamed Eric the Hedge Hog by little brother.
I finally dropped off my car. One of my really good friends/sister picked me up and we went to work on my part time costume. We got the box and made plans to work on it more the next day. (I will post a picture later).
Two days later, in a quick decision I decided to try Lent this year and see what would happen. Another clarification, I have never been into this and have never tried it but I thought it would be a nice journey of self discovery. I almost gave up in the beginning (mostly from forgetfulness) but it has become a nice exploration of faith and so far it has increased my prayer life. I also only have cheated once.
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In this exploration of giving something up for Lent has pointed something else to me, that has combined with my other thing of Lent. The new one was guys. It was not just the much of dating guys but more in the house of liking them. Satan has got me good with that one before.
Over the last few weeks some one else has been Satan's tool of trying to get me to stray of staying focus on just my relationship with God and his plan for me. I have been praying hard to just ignore them and most times I have been doing well.
One of the things that I have been doing is reading, Praying for your Future Husband by Robin Jones Gunn & Tricia Goyer. (I have always loved reading Robin Jones Gunn since my mom gave me the first volume of Christy Miller books one Christmas). When ever I feel weak or need to give up on this little crush and think about the true guy for me that God has plan for me.The book gives prayers and helps me understand more what to pray for. This is the verse below is one of the verse they use in their book.
"Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up." Luke 18:1
So now anytime I have problem with the second thing I crave the first thing. I am still waiting for my car to be fixed but in the end the time I spent with people that I would have not if I had my car. I am also very much thankful for the people giving me rides.
Comment Below... I would also love if you Prayed for me in this journey. Also Enjoy the snow...
Love,
Sister Evynn
P.s. The only really upside for liking a new guy is the poetry bug has struck again. Check it out! My Poetry Profile
